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mclachland) wrote2011-10-07 04:40 pm
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Oneiroi [epilogue]
There is a tree on a sun-soaked hill, an elm with resigned branches that births globules of light and thought, heavy fruit sprouting wings. They tear from the boughs and fly away, leaving the sad elm, never to return and never missed. More blossom in their place almost immediately.
He studies it -- this well-oiled machine -- and is so engrossed in the process that he does not hear the heavy footsteps in the grass behind him.
"It was the first of my dreams," Dean says, coming to stand beside Cas. He shoves his hands into his pockets and looks up at the tree with a critical eye -- usually reserved for the Impala or a piece of pie. Except this is not Dean. "I wanted an extension of me, a piece to do my work should I find myself far away. A part of me, a dream that dreams."
"It is magnificent," Cas admits, watching the process with awe. The fruit, the creatures he has come to know and fear and understand, pull away and drift into the sky. The oneiroi will find the minds of the inhabitants of some world out there, whether it is Earth or a place that does not know of angels and humans and a failed deity's kingdom. He tracks them until they leave his sight.
Dean rocks on his heels and then gazes out into the fields, sunlight reflected back in his eyes, his skin, and Cas is not sure how he could have ever thought this poorly-made copy was Dean Winchester. "It will not be long. A blip. A blink. A breath, and then you will finally be here, my Castiel, dreaming of me."
At the bottom of the hill, the tall grasses rustle and part, and Cas cannot contain the smile that blossoms across his face.
"Cas!"
He shakes his head, still smiling. "You're mistaken. It's true that someday I will be here. I will dream for you, perhaps even with you, but… I will never dream of you."
His words are final, and he leaves Morpheus on the hill to wait for the end of this blip, blink, breath.
Running down the gilded slope to join Dean, Cas holds him careful and close, swallowing his laughter and pulling him back into the grass, into gold, until they disappear.
that you will hold me dear.
Though I'm far away I whisper your name into the sky,
and I will wake up happy.”
End.
Notes:
So, I guess when I said that "Named" was my first and last Big Bang story, I lied. "Oneiroi" was a long time in coming, actually, having first been an original screenplay about a girl who goes into Demos Oneiroi to rescue the kid she's in love with. In 2009, I was gearing up to seriously give thought to shopping it around when I heard that Christopher Nolan was making a movie about dreams. I ended up shelving it, because who would ever contend with Christ Nolan (even if our plots were completely and utterly different)? I ended up using it for my DCBB mostly because I had only a month to write it and I could come up with nothing else.
Writing from Castiel's POV was the hardest thing about it and I probably (re: definitely) will never do that again.
I'm glad I wrote it, but I'm fucking stoked it's over. On to new things!
Thanks:
I would be completely in the wrong if I didn't thank the people who yelled/cajoled/threatened/bribed/sat up until the wee hours of the morning with/loved me throughout June and July.
First and foremost, thanks to my betas
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I love your Cas… I struggled with writing Cas POV too in Something Stupid but I think you've gotten a real handle on the stoicism, devotion and loyalty that are the basis for his humanity. The Cas I've seen on the show is so very much the Cas who would give up his Grace again for Dean in this story, even if it dooms him to return to Morpheus (and you better damn well be writing a sequel where they find a loophole!). I loved how Dean came to realize how much Castiel cares about him (it was really only at the end of the fic that I realized Dean hadn't actually been in it very much, but he's ever-present because he's so clearly ever-present to Cas) – it means so much more after 6.22-7.02. So damn bittersweet to have Cas realizing his "future" with Dean was also an illusion.
Just so damn well done, sweetness, really. ♥♥♥♥♥
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ANYWAY.
I'm so happy you enjoyed the story. Your comments and compliments make all the tears and sleepless nights totally worth it. Thank you so very much. NOW ONTO YOUR DCBB! <3333
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Your version reads a true to my own headcanon version of Cas as I've ever read!